The n-word trauma & reclaiming words

Growing up, my journey was fraught with struggles. Trauma, anxiety, and depression were unwelcome companions on my path. I felt isolated, unable to trust even those closest to me. Parties and gatherings became anxiety-riddled nightmares, each interaction laced with the fear of physical or emotional harm.

But amidst the darkness, I discovered a glimmer of resilience—the theory of negativity. It's a simple concept: I'd preemptively bombard myself with negative thoughts, preparing myself for the inevitable criticisms from others. This way, their words lost their power to wound me as deeply.

 

It's akin to reclaiming a word that's been used as a weapon against you. While some may dismiss it as delusional, it's a coping mechanism—a way to soften the impact of hurtful words and actions.

For Black individuals, especially, the n-word carries a heavy burden of historical trauma. But by reclaiming it, by reshaping its meaning within ourselves, we reclaim a measure of control over our own narratives.

Reclamation is not about erasing the past or denying the pain—it's about carving out space for healing and empowerment in a world that too often seeks to diminish us.

 

If you're navigating your own trauma, remember: there's no one-size-fits-all solution. Experiment with different coping mechanisms, find what works for you, and hold onto it fiercely.

 

Thanks for reading! - Creative Director 

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